Wow. I was speechless when I first read your comment and extremely generous compliments about my helping you and about my writing well–’like the wind’. Thank you for lack of better words to show my appreciation.

I was not and am not offended by a person who ’sounds off’ on bipolar, especially someone who has been affected by someone in a negative way. If not negative, affected and maybe hurt. You only know the right words for your situation. The illness can be very destructive, and I’m sure a few men in my life may not say the greatest things about me or bipolar. Maybe not true. I’m not sure really, but I know I’ve hurt people, but for more of the same reasons as you did to your wife at one point in time.

Point being, I’ve learned a lot from your blog posts and the stream of comments per your affair too. I’ve at times allowed you to even take the form of some one I believe your not, and that would be my ex-lover. Let’s safely assume your not. But it’s a crazy world we live in.

Have I found my closure that you seemed to have found? No. I don’t think for me I will. It’s always complex when it comes to love, life, and human condition so my answer remains unknown. And in a relationship, I need to ask myself why I’m asking anyways. Human nature, I guess.

I’m starting a new business venture, so I won’t be able to blog as much. I love writing so bummed about that, but business is exciting and their is more than enough to do and only so much time. I’ll be around though, so keep posted!

Your a fabulous writer yourself. You have the timing down with words, and they flow together well to make great blog posts that pose interesting discussions. And I’m sure you’ll find a new subject to dissect somewhere buried in your life and surroundings.

Take care.

Truly yours,

Mea Nada Madison

I could have written a blog about this comment. Damn. wink.

What piece?

The Bipolar 1 factor. If you’ve read my early posts, you know I was quite harsh toward bipolar people. It’s nothing personal. I was just hurting. I was convinced that people with bipolar were incapable of love. True love. I believed that my ex-lover’s affair with me was the result of a “manic episode.” Nothing more. I also believed that the creativity she once possessed (and exhibited in her blogs) was also the result of uncontrolled mania. You see, once my ex was diagnosed with Bipolar 1, her creativity stopped. She no longer has a blog. She no longer has a desire (or need) to write. About anything. It’s a radical change from the person I once knew. It’s why I concluded that that person never really existed. Once the Zyprexa and Depakote kicked in, that wild, loving, creative person was gone.

Then I saw your blog, and learned that people with Bipolar 1 do have a soul. You write like the wind. You write like a person who has something to say, and if it sounds manic at times, well, so be it! You write about love. You write about relationships. You write about the human condition. And because of this, I can only conclude that the reason my ex doesn’t write anymore is because she’s a dumbass. And it has nothing to do with her bipolar condition.

Sorry to leave such a long comment, but I wanted you to know where I was coming from. You are an excellent writer, Mea. Keep it up!

Some of my posts will be parts of my book, but not in the exact wordage or time frame, obviously since theses are just small blogs of events that would take much more than a blog to explain. So the answer is yes and no as per posts going into my book. However the pieces I sense a stronger attraction to by viewers I may be more inclined to spend more time on that piece, subject, or time frame.

Bipolar I guess I would have to say is a common thread between all posts. For one, I have a diagnosis of it, and thus these posts are case specific to bipolar, but they are not only about bipolar, as I’m sure you can tell. They are about life and a life within my life that occurred. Sometimes I was and am unsure how much is contributed by my having bipolar if any at all. I have some posts that are more directed towards the psychology field (but what isn’t, really?), so some are more bipolar prone than others, thus I tend to tag most with bipolar not to leave the group out. Does that make any sense?

Anyway, thanks again for the compliment on this posting. I’ve been short lately, so thanks. How often do you post?

Have a great weekend tvexplorer!

Truly,

Mea Nada Madison

P.S. Maybe I need to include more information to complete the story, if you think so, let me know. I’d appreciate the honest feedback.